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Am I really losing my shit?

Am I really losing my shit?

I woke up this morning, said my prayers and completed my regular morning routine. Except this time, I didn’t have to pack my lunch because I’m off from work on the weekends. After a few stretches, I began preparing myself for a workout at the gym. I took a shower and got dressed. Fast forward 70 minutes later on the treadmilI. I started feeling pressed and had to use the restroom. At this time, I was almost done with my workout. After my 80 minutes run, I went to use the restroom, and while I was there, my activity tracker fell on the restroom floor. I picked it up and went back to working out.  I decided on my way home that I needed to get some items from the grocery store so I stopped by to pick up a few things. While I was shopping, I realized I didn’t have my tracker on so I waited till I was done shopping to check for it in the car.  I got to my car, searched everywhere and it was nowhere to be found. I drove back to the gym facility to look for it, but before that, I had already called customer service to see if anyone brought it to the front desk. I was informed, “not yet.” After I realized it wasn’t in my car, I started panicking a great deal.  I was mad at myself for not recalling what I did with it after I left the restroom. I went blank for a minute; I sat in my car trying to think of what I did with my tracker at the same time making up different scenarios in my head while my anxiety goes off on me. I felt invisible things crawling on my skin, my heart beating faster than usual, restlessness and rapid breathing. I have no idea why I keep losing items at the rate that I do.

Am I losing my mind or is it possible that someone found it and decided to keep it for themselves? I asked myself those questions over and over again, but of course, I had no definite answer for it. Thirty minutes later, I found it, and it was in my pocket the whole freaking time! I am still astonished by this epic, outrageous, and shameful event that keeps taken place in my life.

I seriously would like to know if this is “normal” or not because it happens to me at least once a week and I have no idea how to deal with it. Please leave a comment and let me know if you have ever experienced something like this and how often. I just need to feel like I’m not ALONE!

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  • Hapuruchi says:

    Such a great write up! Kept me on my feet the whole time. Feels like a scene from an action movie! But I can totally relate with what you went through today because I too go through it every once and again.


  • D says:

    You are not alone. This happens to me way too often. I often wonder if anxiety creates it or does it create anxiety–or is it a bit of both? Most time I blame it on gremlins!

    • I really believe is a combination of both and high level of stress. I also read about delusional paraistosis but I don’t think I have to worry about that. I was more concerned because of the invisible crawls. I’m so glad to know I’m not alone. I feel a tad bit normal now . Thank you for reading and commenting.

      • Wonder woman says:

        I so agree. Too much in and on your mind—and all the little things get “forgotten.” Don’t beat yourself and maybe use as a tool to recognize that you are overwhelmed and overburdened.

  • Nazo says:

    It happens my dear especially when you are going through stress. When it is difficult for u to handle, just remind yourself that the day shall pass. Stay strong, and you u are not alone.

  • Jidejintao says:

    It happens to everyone and anyone and i think the best way is to Jos stay calm and feel relax to recall when last you saw it then check properly.
    It’s nothing and you ain’t Alone

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