My personal story
Finding out I have an anxiety disorder has been a life-changing event for me after spending what felt like a lifetime researching about anxiety disorders and how to cope with one, I found several articles, both medical and psychology oriented, that made me feel like I was embarking on this journey on my own. My goal for researching anxiety disorder was to be able to connect with other people that have similar struggles relating to anxiety or mental health. Communicating my personal stories and journaling my daily struggles has helped me tremendously by connecting me with other people, and building stronger relationships with most of my clients who are diagnosed with several mental health disorders
I have always been a shy individual and extremely nervous around strangers, and especially in crowds. I clearly recall my first anxiety attack episode. It took place while I was on a date. I found myself feeling like I couldn’t breathe, detached from reality, fearful for my life as if it was in grave danger. At that very moment, all I wanted was the ground to open up and swallow me whole. I had no explanation as to why I felt the way that I did. I ended up spending about 30 minutes in the restroom, and by the time I came back to the table, my date had left but I was not upset with anyone else but myself. I felt very embarrassed, shocked and too unstable to have any form of social life.
It became official in 2015, when I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD). It was no longer a surprise to me at that point because I knew something was wrong with me but I did not want anyone knowing about. I hid it from my family because I felt ashamed and helpless. After a few months went by, I decided it was time to tell my mother about my new-found mystery ‘friend’ – GAD. The next day I had what I consider, my most epic anxiety attack episode. It lasted for hours….
I am able to manage my anxiety and live a healthy life through therapy, managing my diet, and engaging in physical and mental wellness. My main purpose for creating this blog is to connect with more people all over the world in a non-judgmental place, where anyone can share their struggles living with anxiety disorder or any form of mental health disorder, their thoughts, suggestions and helpful resources.
Who am I
My name is Chigozie and I was born and raised in Nigeria, in West Africa. I reside with my wonderful and supportive boyfriend, Maxwell. I recently received my Master’s in Psychology and I’m currently working on my Doctorate degree in clinical psychology. I work with individuals with mental health disorders. It can be very challenging some days but I love my field of work. I enjoy working out, cooking, crocheting, spending time with my family, friends and trying out new ways to improve myself. I am very ambitious, super energetic, caring and very much in love with cats.
I’m very excited to share with you guys that I no longer feel enslaved to GAD, I have found my voice and I can speak to others about it without feeling ashamed, hopeless or lonely. I am on my journey to recovery and some days are harder than others. You are cordially invited to join me on this journey. Please feel free to contact me, share your stories and ideas.
"When thinking about life, remember this: No amount of guilt can solve the past, and no amount of anxiety can change the future.”